2021 re-cap: ao3 user caihongs go brrr
Dec. 29th, 2021 03:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caihongsorry not sorry for the embarrassing title... i couldn't think of anything else.
2021 was a little insane: 20 fics, 3 fandoms, 181 419 words across all platforms, 24 ships—so a whole lot of writing! this isn't including the dreamwidth commentaries i've written, which are quite long and comprehensive on their own. never underestimate hayley's ability to just ramble for hours and hours, especially about her own writing T___T
anyways! i wanted to follow sess' structure for her year in review (thank you friend!) so sit tight and enjoy?
wordcount:
ao3: 170 036
dreamwidth drabbles: 7 292
twitter drabbles: 4 091
total: 181 419
ao3-specific: (these are mainly for me to look towards for next year! numbers should not define or control you nor influence what makes you happy >:()
user subscribers: 104
kudos: 1 586
1. but you have broken down my defences, and i don’t really resent it (NCT: markno, childhood friends to lovers) [gift for kaia] + commentary post
2. getting in a car with a beautiful boy (and other horrific decisions) (NCT: markren, roadtrip au) [markren secret santa 2020, gift for nikki] + commentary post
3. heaven is a place on earth (SVT: junhao, san junipero au) [jiemei exchange, gift for ying]
4. i'm so good with you (NCT/TBZ: jenric, high school au)
5. auto-immune (TBZ: nyucob, strangers to lovers) [pt. 1 of the better part of me, gift for m] + commentary post
6. to hold infinity in the palm of your hand (TBZ: 98z, strangers to lovers) [co-written with m]
7. i wanna make more time (and give you my whole life) (NCT: markren, long distance relationship) [gift for nee, nikki, and q]
8. how superbly situated (NCT: nahyuck, supernatural elements/small town au) [jiemei exchange, gift for daash]
9. so this is what it looks like (chapter 4) (NCT: markren, single parent au) [markren week]
10. you and me always forever (TBZ: kevkyu, college au) [98ff]
11. what makes life divine (TBZ: 97z, domestic au) [pt.4 of close to you]
12. oh i've been dazed and confused! (TBZ: jukev, established relationship) [pt.5 of close to you]
13. unless it's you (TBZ: nyucob, established relationship) [pt. 2 of the better part of me]
14. who could have imagined you? (TBZ: jukev, canon compliant)
15. cuddle up baby (move in tight) (TBZ: ot4 maknae line, sharing a bed)
16. can you love me like that? (TBZ: milcob, strangers to lovers)
17. is there such a thing as love without despair (TBZ: kyuhak, god and vampire au) [the hunt fest]
18. i can give you all my love (TBZ: sangkev, slice of life)
19. syntax (TBZ: jusun, book club/college au) [diejungz fest]
20. you'll never know how many dreams i dream about you (NCT: jenle, canon compliant) [gift for q]
+ drabbles on dw prior to this post
+ spotify wrapped drabbles on twitter
1. the bermuda fic fest that never was: i was supposed to write a bbangju but couldn't find it in myself to continue writing it and dropped out </3
2. milsun spiderman au: i started this in july inspired by what, i have no recollection. i didn't think i'd ever finish it this year anyway but it was fun to write it! probably a gen/teen fic with an ambiguous/open ending... probably no romance or getting together at the end. just hyunjae taking care of sunwoo who is always taking care of others :)
3. 2ju w/ supernatural elements: i started this in april of this year and i do feel a little bad about not completing this but i think when i have the motivation to write it, it'll come out in like three days LOL. i need to do more 2ju study to properly write it i feel.
4. all the others...: the other two tbz wips were started last year and at this point, i'm vent-writing them whenever i want to so it's not putting any stress or pressure on me at the moment.
sorry the subtitles aren't going to get any better. i think i set too many restrictions on myself last year that stunted my growth as a writer for nct, and i think it was because of how toxic the ficdom was, that i thought i needed to perform better with every new published fic. of course, that's unattainable and not a great mindset to be having especially for something as unimportant as fic-writing in the grand scheme of life, let alone something you should be enjoying. since shifting my writing for the boyz, i've definitely thrived from the relatively 'bare' foundations of the ficdom. being able to write whatever i want and know that i'm actively increasing the number of fics in that one tag or perhaps encouraging potential writers to do the same, contributes to my motivation to write. at the same time, i did overexert myself (clearly i cannot do anything in moderation) and found myself wanting to write to fill said rarepair tags like it was a duty, which resulted in a very quick decline in writing post-september (i.e. after that 40k milcob fic) and using the dredges of my motivation to push out the hunt and diejungz. i found myself getting back into seventeen in october, and i slowly but surely got myself back into the ficdom. like a few of my friends have noticed, being part of a fandom without being a content creator/fic writer is really, really great. it makes it more fun to be part of a fandom when you don't have an obligation to contribute and can freely read and enjoy content made by other great minds! so i had to take a little break from tbz during maverick, and only got back into being a deobi during december.
i think one regret i have is not writing at least one girl group fic this year. i wrote a wenseul fic last year and was so pumped to write for loona or red velvet this year but that fell through... i never kept myself accountable for one, and two, a complete lack of ideas. there were no ideas in this big noggin of mine for ggfic and even in my forced attempt to write, aka signing up for gg jukebox, i fell sick and literally could not write for my chosen audio visual inspiration nor ship. i may get back to this in 2022 but no promises! i have made it a goal for next year but if it doesn't happen... then it is what it is :')
2022 will be my year of hopefully expanding my writing to other fandoms and giving tbz a break again! i have exactly (1) enhyphen fic to finish and publish, and i definitely want to write for seventeen next year (posting these on mujigaes). i also want to reach a few more stat goals (user subscribers and wordcount) but that's not a priority.
thanks for reading if you made it this far! i hope 2021 was a great year for all my artist friends and if it wasn't, there is a whole year waiting for you! do not fret, i believe in you!
2021 was a little insane: 20 fics, 3 fandoms, 181 419 words across all platforms, 24 ships—so a whole lot of writing! this isn't including the dreamwidth commentaries i've written, which are quite long and comprehensive on their own. never underestimate hayley's ability to just ramble for hours and hours, especially about her own writing T___T
anyways! i wanted to follow sess' structure for her year in review (thank you friend!) so sit tight and enjoy?
stats, stats, stats!
wordcount:
ao3: 170 036
dreamwidth drabbles: 7 292
twitter drabbles: 4 091
total: 181 419
ao3-specific: (these are mainly for me to look towards for next year! numbers should not define or control you nor influence what makes you happy >:()
user subscribers: 104
kudos: 1 586
fics posted:
1. but you have broken down my defences, and i don’t really resent it (NCT: markno, childhood friends to lovers) [gift for kaia] + commentary post
2. getting in a car with a beautiful boy (and other horrific decisions) (NCT: markren, roadtrip au) [markren secret santa 2020, gift for nikki] + commentary post
3. heaven is a place on earth (SVT: junhao, san junipero au) [jiemei exchange, gift for ying]
4. i'm so good with you (NCT/TBZ: jenric, high school au)
5. auto-immune (TBZ: nyucob, strangers to lovers) [pt. 1 of the better part of me, gift for m] + commentary post
6. to hold infinity in the palm of your hand (TBZ: 98z, strangers to lovers) [co-written with m]
7. i wanna make more time (and give you my whole life) (NCT: markren, long distance relationship) [gift for nee, nikki, and q]
8. how superbly situated (NCT: nahyuck, supernatural elements/small town au) [jiemei exchange, gift for daash]
9. so this is what it looks like (chapter 4) (NCT: markren, single parent au) [markren week]
10. you and me always forever (TBZ: kevkyu, college au) [98ff]
11. what makes life divine (TBZ: 97z, domestic au) [pt.4 of close to you]
12. oh i've been dazed and confused! (TBZ: jukev, established relationship) [pt.5 of close to you]
13. unless it's you (TBZ: nyucob, established relationship) [pt. 2 of the better part of me]
14. who could have imagined you? (TBZ: jukev, canon compliant)
15. cuddle up baby (move in tight) (TBZ: ot4 maknae line, sharing a bed)
16. can you love me like that? (TBZ: milcob, strangers to lovers)
17. is there such a thing as love without despair (TBZ: kyuhak, god and vampire au) [the hunt fest]
18. i can give you all my love (TBZ: sangkev, slice of life)
19. syntax (TBZ: jusun, book club/college au) [diejungz fest]
20. you'll never know how many dreams i dream about you (NCT: jenle, canon compliant) [gift for q]
+ drabbles on dw prior to this post
+ spotify wrapped drabbles on twitter
wips that never saw the light of day:
1. the bermuda fic fest that never was: i was supposed to write a bbangju but couldn't find it in myself to continue writing it and dropped out </3
2. milsun spiderman au: i started this in july inspired by what, i have no recollection. i didn't think i'd ever finish it this year anyway but it was fun to write it! probably a gen/teen fic with an ambiguous/open ending... probably no romance or getting together at the end. just hyunjae taking care of sunwoo who is always taking care of others :)
3. 2ju w/ supernatural elements: i started this in april of this year and i do feel a little bad about not completing this but i think when i have the motivation to write it, it'll come out in like three days LOL. i need to do more 2ju study to properly write it i feel.
4. all the others...: the other two tbz wips were started last year and at this point, i'm vent-writing them whenever i want to so it's not putting any stress or pressure on me at the moment.
i don't know about you, but i'm feeling 2022:
sorry the subtitles aren't going to get any better. i think i set too many restrictions on myself last year that stunted my growth as a writer for nct, and i think it was because of how toxic the ficdom was, that i thought i needed to perform better with every new published fic. of course, that's unattainable and not a great mindset to be having especially for something as unimportant as fic-writing in the grand scheme of life, let alone something you should be enjoying. since shifting my writing for the boyz, i've definitely thrived from the relatively 'bare' foundations of the ficdom. being able to write whatever i want and know that i'm actively increasing the number of fics in that one tag or perhaps encouraging potential writers to do the same, contributes to my motivation to write. at the same time, i did overexert myself (clearly i cannot do anything in moderation) and found myself wanting to write to fill said rarepair tags like it was a duty, which resulted in a very quick decline in writing post-september (i.e. after that 40k milcob fic) and using the dredges of my motivation to push out the hunt and diejungz. i found myself getting back into seventeen in october, and i slowly but surely got myself back into the ficdom. like a few of my friends have noticed, being part of a fandom without being a content creator/fic writer is really, really great. it makes it more fun to be part of a fandom when you don't have an obligation to contribute and can freely read and enjoy content made by other great minds! so i had to take a little break from tbz during maverick, and only got back into being a deobi during december.
i think one regret i have is not writing at least one girl group fic this year. i wrote a wenseul fic last year and was so pumped to write for loona or red velvet this year but that fell through... i never kept myself accountable for one, and two, a complete lack of ideas. there were no ideas in this big noggin of mine for ggfic and even in my forced attempt to write, aka signing up for gg jukebox, i fell sick and literally could not write for my chosen audio visual inspiration nor ship. i may get back to this in 2022 but no promises! i have made it a goal for next year but if it doesn't happen... then it is what it is :')
2022 will be my year of hopefully expanding my writing to other fandoms and giving tbz a break again! i have exactly (1) enhyphen fic to finish and publish, and i definitely want to write for seventeen next year (posting these on mujigaes). i also want to reach a few more stat goals (user subscribers and wordcount) but that's not a priority.
thanks for reading if you made it this far! i hope 2021 was a great year for all my artist friends and if it wasn't, there is a whole year waiting for you! do not fret, i believe in you!
